So, what is it when you are scared to death to hug someone, but you're okay with other, more forward, things? What the hell is that? Why is it, that I can't talk to the people that I really like? I'm fine online or while writing, but in person? Are you kidding me? I turn into the worlds largest chicken! I mess my words up, I can't spit things out, I end up sounding like a freakin dee dee dee! ERG! I wanna know WHY I can't be forward. Try to take what I want. Initiate things. Good grief! No one is gonna sit there and wait forever. If I don't do it, will I miss something? I can't read minds, but MAN I wish I could! Frustration is the word for the day. Complete nonsense and utter foolishness. And. In asking the question. I completely mad a fool of myself. If there's no reason to ever be embarrassed, then why do I almost always feel embarrassed? What is that all about?
I suppose the globe will keep spinning, and tomorrow will come. . But I just wish I could figure out how to be the person I want to be. How be the outgoing and brave and confident. Any suggestions?
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